NoT JuX EmO...
whY izit alwaEz liddatz? wHy for the 3rd time we fAiled to geT back toGether...u saiD that it mAybe fAte.....maybE...iM nt too Sure mYsElf~i jUx duNno wHy u gTa get sO anGry wiTh mi...its nT tOtAlly mY fAult! i Noe i sHouldnt lie to you...bUt hAve u tOt oF why did i do thAt? i wAs aFrAid thAt u wun WanNa get bAck with mi if u Knew the TrUtH and i realli wAnA get bAck with YoU...bUt, stiLL...hEsitAteD...
i cAnt dEnY thAt i do lOve u...mAyb nt as mUch as i uSed to...but its thErE, SomewheRe and im aLL reAdy to finD bAck thOse feelinGs...its jux withiN mi...
BUT durinG thoSe fEw dAes...i fEeL tHat u duN realli RESpeCt mi! iF u cArEfullY think of wAd i tOld...duN u thiNk thAt iTs jUx Nt riGht aNiMoRe? uR dEgrAdiNg the RelAtionShip thAt we sHAre...if i evEr coMplY, u'LL nv RESPEct mi aNimOre...and i tOt that thAt reQuest was realli selFiSh and uR nt thinKinG in wAd u Say...uR jUx 'bliNded' By uR DeSiReS...
MoSt iMportAntlY I DUN wAn soMeoNe whu duN reSpect mi in the deciSion i mAke...i Noe that uR uNhAppi wiTh mi oN fridAy...bUt i wAs realli tired...and u kNew the reAson whY...i hArdly gt ani slp at niGht, kenNA diStuRbed by my mUm in & out of the rOOm, worried thAt she miGht do aNythiNgy SillY sinCe shE's tAking mY bEd...and i stiLl have to wAke up eArly to work...and im dealing witH stRoke pAtients...itS realli mentAlly and PhySicallY draining...and u didnt tRy to unDerStaNd the situAtion im in, and wans to achieve ur own motives...wad abt mi? a long day that work and i rushed all the way down to yishun den to ur house...i almost fall aslp while waiting for my food! thats why i was watching my iPod!
u knew vEry weLL thAt i dun like u to kip nAgging and RepeATing...and u kiP strEssiN mi to breAk up with hiM...i was realli prepared to think of a way to talk to him...i noe he will let mi go but i have my other concerns...
u said u will change to be a better boyfren, but check on how u treat mi even before we got tgt...i dun care and i dun wanna noe why u said those harsh stuffs to mi...i noe i hurt u damn loads and i had nv intended to do so...if u realized, ur the one who said we shud think twice~ ur were the one who said dat we should stay as we are for a moment...You're still the one whu wanna noe the TRUTH! i agreed and told u wad i was hiding from u and u got angry with me
i seriOuslY dunno if we ever realli hab another chAnce..mayb we jUx blew the lASt one away...nt too sure abt the future wor...but the to kip things simple, the next time i will break off from everythingy before lookin for you again~ i mux admit its alwaes cuz i bu se de...thats why i cant progress nor can i withdraw from it....