Thursday, August 14, 2008
well suddenly jux felt like gg back to bloggin...stop cuz no point aniwaes...so now i jux wallow in my self pity in my own little world...no one cares no one reads aniwaes...
im finally year 3 into PT...terrible course...attachment after attachment, tests after test, no time to rest and now that my life is kinda totally screwed up...dun as mi why...i dun wanna explain...and no point explaining aniwaes...
i once had a wonderful boyfren whu is alwaes there for mi...not that i dun have someone to care for mi now. but i
seriously REGRET that i didnt make him stay when i knew all all along that he was kinda the one for mi...well wad can i do why i fucked up my life lidat. like stef sae, jux gta live with the decision i made...although i might still have the chance but i guess i jux lost it about 1 week ago...and wad mummy ida and stef said was...why do You NeeD StabiliTy when Ur oNly 21?true...but without my stability, im insecure...and i still dun think sam sam is the one for mi...and im realli guily about it...can i jux M.I.A? leave the world...finish up my course and live in get lost...lost my jC frens...oNli left with KAi and Sam from primarY sch, the 4 crazy gals & 3 boys from secondary sch and the PTs...hahaz...when every1 think that i got a lot of frens...those frenships that i think can realli last, nw i can count the numbers with all my fingers & toes...
time to remove him from my sight, including all the stitches...
~hen ke lian
~da zui ba
~xiaoxueren
~yao shui jiao
and dada zi who looks at mi everytime i wake up...
reminding mi of how stupid i was to allow my heart to waver cuz of stupid adam...landing mi in such a situation...
wad the hell...emo oso not gonna change anithingy...live with it and hopefully things will get better...
sorry sam sam (thou i now he wun be able to see)
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8/14/2008 05:35:00 PM
