The sadness of life often happen to everyone of us or the frenz ard...wad matters is hopefully the interval isnt to short in between so that we can happily lead a happier life...cuz i guess majority of us live with this mindset " but...i just wanna be happi..." and im also guilty of that, unfortunately...wad is happiness?
for the pass weeks i've been on attachment at orchard physio center...im v glad that im there cuz i learnt alot of tings from Joseph Wong my "boSs" and Li Ann the asSt. there was realli frenly...i enjoyed it more here...althou im alone again...wanna thank him and ann for taking care of mi all these while =) its realli a blessing to work there =) and its definitely one of the most unforgetable episodes in my life...other than physio i was introduced to supplements...which i dun realli believe in taking...until i met my supervisor...so i let dad try them...i read a lot on it and think mayb we realli nid them irregardless of our age...cuz the nutrients that we are receiving from our food is realli not enuff...i dunno...i've yet to try but i guess i will...
yesterdae was the last dae at work...so after work the "physios" gatheredat fish n co for dinner and went clubbing at momo...im not gg back there again unless i got a lot of frens sae they wanna go over...and wah piangs i fell there...i didnt see a step and tripped over...so paisehs and got 3 blueblacks and a small cut on my hand and 1 on my foot...lucky im wearing jeans or i think i cant last thru the nite with the pain...i realli had a wild time but im still not quite happy...i cried at work todae...not cuz im leaving that i miss my "boss" and ann...but cuz of the msges that my baby sent mi...
i tot we are at the verge of splitin...and we dunno how salvage...cuz it had been an existing prob between us...and that realli hurt mi...that we had different views and principles and the insanity in the both of us...we've alwaes disagree that taurus and leo cant get tgt for long cuz both are stubborn pple...nw i think im staring to agree...no matter how cuz leos could be...i guess the romantic and emotional taurus is often taken aback by her bloody emos...so much so that i cant listen to zuan shu tian shi cuz i wud think abt him and start to tear...NO SAD SONGS! and the whole issue still boils down to cuz " i jux wanna be happi"
on easter dae i was happi and not quite happi...happi cuz my baby is gg to my "boss" church tgt with mi...and the theme was " i juz wanna be happi" simply by the verse John 11:35, "jesus wept" the shortest verse in the whole bible...cuz i've alwaes wanted him to convert and i dunno why whenever he is in the church with mi i get ultra emo...i cry when i pray, watch clips on the death and resurrection of jesus and sing my fav songs in church...n i was sad cuz he didnt seem interested at all to be God'd child and follower...and i guessed he ticked the box that saes he is interested to noe more cuz of mi...and the box that sae he is not interested for himself...and the topic was left hanging there again...i dunno why he is so reluctant to come into the family...cu jesus wept cuz ppl dun understand the gift of life...believing that he is our miracle that he can walk us thru in all ups and downs...and i wepted cuz he could not understand the goodness of God and his invitation to him to be his follower and child...to come to be the christian bf and hubby that i've alwaes wished for...and he made mi doubt even more whether we could realli be tgt...forcing mi to choose between him n God...back to the topic...i dun wanna choose...and i wan both..."cuz i just wanna be happi"...cuz if i lose ani...i would be unhappi...this happiness is not wad the word can give but wad God can give the joy in jux being thankful and grateful that we can wake up in the morning........
Thus my resolution for now...is try not to go on the basis the " cuz i jux wanna be hapi" cuz that is the cause of my stubborness and also part of the reason of the BIG COLD WAR between mi n my baby this time...indirectly...theres realli a nid for change but how are we gonna do it and the amt f effort put in....to sustain n love bravely
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4/15/2007 12:04:00 AM
We LovE, beCauSe HE 1st LovEd uS...
The One & ONLI
XiAoxUereN
bAllerina
hiPhoP dAncer
bAsketBaller
pHysiO-to-bE...who was borN...
on 13th mAy 1987
im nuTtiN but a crAzy gAl and oNe wHo conStAntly seeks for fun n relAxation...
LOVES;
huBbY ChUbi
YumMy fOOd:
dArK chOcoLAte
chOco-miNt iCe crEaM
eScaGots
FuN aNd lAuGhTer:
bAskEtbAll
DaNcinG (my eveRlAsting pAssion)
wAtcH tV
sLacK
PlaY mY drUms
diStUrB mY frEnz
stuFfs thAt giMme an AdrEnAlin ruSh =)
tRaveLLin
shOPpiN
pEoPle:
cArol deAr
soTonG ZheN zhEn
mAryAnn dArliN
pEixi tHe siAo
pAtRiciA the crAzy
tinGting the gAlgAl
HATES;
mY bOokS! hAte to stUdy mAn!
hYpOcriTes (unfortuNately dEy are ard!)
*giMme some time to aDd to thE liSt*
DESIRES;
moSt imPtlY
cASh
more cloThEs
a niCe wAtcH
dO dAmn weLL in mY stUdies to gO to aUstRAliA
moRe fReeDoM
*i'LL lOOk for tHem the nExt timE i gO shOppiN
