Saturday, January 27, 2007
WE GO PA TOR LEH
todae got duty for open hse...damn sianz n waste time...althou if i dun go i will still slack it awae but i rather slack it doing sth i like...so linus n i ended up playing spider solitaire...and scared the o lvl students that they nid A lvl cert to get in...lolx...so many pple wan go nursing leh! den linus like saying PT betta den OT lolz..
meet up w dear at 3+ after my duty...den we went to vivo! wah v long nv pa tor liddat siaz...woah...so nice lehz...went to candy empire to get jelly bean...shud hav got the other brand nicer...cuz the package nv sae got licorice de...so i got it...but end up still got so diSgusting la! smelly lor...so greedy...we spent our money on food onli lehz!!! nuTtin else...eat n eat n eat~ lolz...no wonder the both of us gettin fat(ter)...lolx...
but realli happi we very long nv go shoppin n spend time tgt out of home...other than gg to yishun 10 for movies...but now adaes so less frequent le...cuz i got no time...n no hav realli nice shows that the proper slots...
suddenli we back to our old daes when we jux pa tor...lolx...initialli we wanna go into sentosa to watch the music fountain de...but other than that go nuttin else to do...so we didnt go in cuz still hav to pay admission...and we are not in the attire to go to the beach...n i noe we cant chill at the bar de...dun like him to drink so cant go drinkin with him lolx...so we decided to go home to play monopoly...lolx so i got a box of kimchi (yummY) and we went home...
but the ending was we didnt play monopoly instead dear left for home cuz he v tired...so i watch shao(4) nian (2) te(4) gong(1) dui(4) lolx so funnie...
after the big fight its todae that i find that we are gettin back to our lovey dovey daes...althou no as much but we are improving...lolx...jiAyoU! i kNow i love my dear~
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1/27/2007 09:49:00 PM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
wHu cAn i trUSt?!
yEstErDae got work at sArimbun as belAyer at cRc...but yestErDae was quiTe alrite the kids for the 1st grp not bad...duNno y mAyb i jUx dun like boys la...cAnt stAnd thEm...i love the galz...esp those frOm the 1st sLot...
we didnt do alot of work...cuZ after the 1st 2 slOts...it stArTed to rain and every thing was changed to wet weather...so we slack at the tentage there...pArtly oso cuz after the 1st slot its lunch le...(but we jux had breakfast at 8+ and lunCh was at 11+?!)
when we can contiNue oUr activity, during the briefing the sudden rain cAme again so it was cancelled again so we continUe to slAck...until the last slot which started onli at 4:40pm...which was suppoSed to end at 5:15pm...and i did the transverse ladder...due to the short time i didnt clear all n i tried cuz i didnt let them finish the thing...and asked them to fall on so that we can save some time...cuz lowerin is faster than climbing down...cuz its realli high...(im so nice...cuz we wan the trainers to do the higher ones...while hab n i do the lower on...clear fast n not so tired cuz we hav to do whole dae of belaying but they sent an attachie who nv did cRc belAy suMmore so i took the hiGh oNe)
one thing freakin pissed...i dun mind trainers slackin...but noe when is the time to do so...iSnt it like a normal thing that u check to kid's harness before sending them to mi...already request them to do it le...but still not done...instead of standing there to tell them how to wear cant u jux hlp if u see that they got difficulty?! check their harness tight enuff not...helmet n stuffs. end up i still hav to hlp them do it...izit they dunno how to wear oso? the monkey tails hanging...wait loop n leg loop not tight enuff...helmet in funky style...u think v funnie...if anythinG happen whu's responsible?! iSnt it better that u check the kids den send betta den i dunid waste time to adjust for them when they are there so that the time wasted to adjust can be used to clear more kids?! wads w pple these daes? onli noe tok big n dun do work...wads more already asked that they check for them before sendin le! onli noe how to stand at one corner tok...nv do crowd ctrl summore...i noe ur new...but wres the attempt to even do ur job properly?!
after that majority of us showered and we left...woA 1st time shower open at the sarimbun toilet...cuz all the cubicles stink like hell...so i locked the door n occupy the whole toilet...cuz the kids were having their dinner aniwae...damn nice...drove the guys home...den hAnchoNg kip tokin to mum lol...hiS chiNese...lolz...and hes frm Chinese high suMMore lol...tokin abt his scouting experience n outdoor cookin...until mum sae he realli noe how to cooK...
BUT
he's cookin is dig hole, bbQ, bAke the chiCken in mud one! lolz...den mum n i had dinner at beach road...yuMMy tom yAm soUp, mAngo sAlad n piNeapple rice...i v bad...got 2 women as mi whether i wan drink i sae dun wan den i end up drinkin fr the other stall...but i dun think im at fault cuz i alwaes drink frm that stall...so im not to be blamed...n we onli order one glass...so whu shud i order frm?! dun pester mi...i get irritated i both oso dun buy...lol
i drove home...lol damn cooL...
finalli got home...msg dear...he still playing mj but sae will go home after dat so okie lor i wait...damn tired damn slpy...but toked to mum n watch tv as i wait...asked mi whether i was slpin...already said "damn tired...u sae lehz" isnt it obvious that i wanna slP?! but after dat he sae gg to tak's hse...kenna faked lor...so not happi...iM like here waiting for u to go home so that we can chat on the pHone...n there u go tak's hse...informing mi onli last min after i wait so long...
called him...den he sae "i tell honest u dun wan believe...u like training mi to tell white lies to u lehz"
> its not i dun believe but the point is u wan go dun wait until ur on ur wae le den sae...tell mi earlier den i can go rest!i didnt slp well at campsite...gta wake up earli gta work...belay the kids...i oso wanna rest n slp de lor...den wad i got in return? the person i trust the most...the person i love the most saying to mi..."ur like train mi to tell white LIES to u to CHEAT u" if ur mi u can tke it? asking...can i even trust u le? how i noe whether u lying or not? liddat i oso cant angry? u might tke it as a joke...but to mi it isnt anything funny abt it...or to joke abt!!! i said before...if the guy cheat on mi...theres no 2nd chance...no matter how much i love him cuz if he can do it once...he will do it again! wres the trust now? loSt!
still msg mi if i not seeing him todae let him noe so that he can plan his activity...wad else can u do other than mj? u noe i dun like u to playin so muCh...u sae i dun let u spend time w ur frenz...make it like dun play will die...its not like u dunno ur playing so much more than last time...when i kip stoppin u frm playing...but wad can i sae now?! no choice right when u sae u dun wanna waste ur wkend when u not with mi...whu is the one whu sae wanna rest properly this wkend?!
its realli not i dun let u play lor...ut mj kakis oso my frens lor...if i dun let u go it makes mi look bad...n i've not been stoppin u if u realize...n its not that i dun wanna let u go tak house...but lettin mi noe in advance canot? u think i wanna make a big hoohaa abt u gg there? NO! iS wad u've said...realli sae till i dunno wad to sae le lor...
i said" i care u! u wanna lie to me go ahead jux dun let mi find out or i wuN wan u animore!"
clear enuff?! u think i kup for fun?! realli dunno how to tok to u le lor...
sae i angry till morning...think of wad u sent mi! i didnt open till mornin! u think i can jux see n still lol?! sae i can dun wan u! fine! if this is wad u wan...aniwae the periods between disputes are gettin shorter...y can lidat...cuz some guys sae dat i wan him to cheat on mi...n HE WILL DO IT!
reflect! when u sae this kind of things to mi...u tink i can jux let u go off liddat?! mum sae i love him more than he love mi when she sees it liddat...but i told her i think u love mi more...but i think after this incident i can sae that my love for U is no less than u...its measurable...cuz u dunno how i jux hurt mi liddat...and i noe that im realli sad and if one dae i have no choice...i nid to let go i will! even if its gonna affect mi so much~ cuz i hav to do to wad i said when there isnt a crisis base on how i see the circumstances...cuz i noe when it realli comes...i wun wanna let go...but i jux hav to...cuz i dun wanna be the kind of gal whom u jux hoax a little n i get back to u...cuz sooner or later...i wun even be hoaxed animore...and be left at one corner...crying my heart out when MAN think its li(2) suo(3) dang(1) ran(2) for guys to be liddat...by them i'll be a pitiful soul whu asked for it...
i dunno when we are gonna speak to each other again...but i noe i wun initiate...cuz u realli broke my heart n i wun giv in...askin myself if i can still trust u...i dunno...
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007
SIGNS N SYMPTOMS OF DEPRESSION-mayb i should quit physio soon...-> cant let mary see this...i think she will scream at mi again...but im realli kinda stressed up cuz it requires v consistant work...n im not that kinda of person...simply too slack...its ez to sae buck up, pull up my socks and wadever not but its realli tough when u stuDy for the sake of it...realli sick of this feelin lehz...wads more...even the powerpack pple are leaving! n mi this stupid dumbass is still trying to survive in there when im like drowning and dying soon...the pressure is reali up and i realli feel f***ing bad to see everyone else ard mi doing v much better den mi i realli cant stand the feeling...tell mi: "PUT DOWN UR EGO AND STOP COMPLAINING!" but too bad im jux lidat its realli upsetting to see that i study hard n my efforts dun pay?! realli hate memory work...im an application person...but wads worse...it dun realli reflect on my prac scores...actualli no diff...cuz u gotta memorize the stuffs to do well in praCs too! wAd shit man?! n i think the damn M**A women sux totalli i dun think i deserve to get D for dis pRac! i deServe BETTA grAdes! even fathiah said so...i did do that badly...she realli practice favouritism till lidat siaz...TO THE DAMN WOMEN: jUx cuz im not the ultra good student doesnt mean that u treat mi w unfairness...n it dun make sense that "u" let off the guys so easily! n the gals alwaes dun get the better grades...come on lor "u" also female lor! CAN BE MORE FAIR NOT! fair suemei jux cuz she didnt noe how to explain wad was X-ray therapy?!when u define it usinf the root words 'X-ray therapy is a therapeutic treatment using x-ray' WTF?! u think ur explaination v good?sae we get confused w stuffs i think ur the one whu is confused!super pissed with sch man...and im tasting something familiar which i think it happened to me...DEPRESSION...my world is in darkness...no point saying that u guys will stick by mi...when no matter how "sticky" it wun hlp cuz every one got their own problems n stuffs to do...n it wun like improve mi grades like wad lor...i will still hav to depend on myself...realli thx the frens whu go thru this w mi...dun meant to be mean...but the 'support' is not hlping mi...instead it jux make mi feel worse n more stupid~mAyb i jux die n let it be...mayb i shud jux stay in australia if i hav a chance to...Singapore...jux too stressful for a dumbass like mi...
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Thursday, January 11, 2007
LOVE + SEX = RELATIONSHIP?realli not sure if it does works...for some couples yesh but for others, not neccessary...do men realli nid SEX so much? DOes love+sex realli nid to come together for a reLationShip to work? i totally disagree lorx...cuz i believe that it can work withouT it...its the chemistry in the relationship itself...duNno but i jux wanna last with dear...but i dun think i wan thAt uneccessary factor to come into the piCture...yes i do agree that it miGht hlp but i think that concept is more for the married couples than to be applied to unmarried ones...say that im conservative...knowing that im actualli quite open...i still think that 1st nite shud be presented to ur spouse...and theres so many pple whu are not treasuring it...and treat sex as sth v normal...izit realli dat so?i think its pretty hard to be involved with some stranger...even with the one u love it might be difficult cuz u dunno whether he is the one for u...wad if he isnt? wad will happen in the future...althou the guys now are mayb more open as in they dun mind not having a virgin wife...but think...someone else screwed ur wife lehz! okie kinda crude but how do i get the point across?but it doesnt mean that a couple will not divorce even after marriage...infact the numbers are gg up so fast lors...but wads is the men's point of view? it seems super easy for them to get into one nite stand...or even multiple stands in one nite? like man is jux one knOb but women has tonnes of them...do they realli think with their head below?as we grow older...the siGnificance of sex seems to diminish...the person whu look like a big flirt might still b a virgin and a super guAi lookin one had already tasted the forbidden apple...and the concept shows itself whether 2 ppl work out is not based by that special relationship that links it...cuz there are couples out there who still broke up even thou dey had that "forbidden" magic in their relationship...when 2 hav diff perceptions n opinions abt something as sensitive as this...whu is the one to giv in? cuz the concepts are totalli opposite of each other...WORLDS APART...how shud the lifestyle be changed...for them to continue as a couple?personally...i dun believe in oPposite attracts...neither do we wan 2 to be too similar cuz the extremes of both = FRICTION in the diff. aspects of life...now im getting confused by was im trying to sae...the tots are floating through my head...so am i open or am i conservative now?so wads the conclusion? NUTTIN...cuz i feel that is someting that differs for everyone...their views abt a relationship...views on sex etc. and wad u wish for in a relationship...
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1/11/2007 03:36:00 PM
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
pHySiO iS mOvinG to NUS?!
Dr SaNn toLd the clZ when jAc n i was in the lAdies...i couldnt believe mAn! i tot the whOle clZ wAs plAying a fOol n jux trYing to Fake uS lehz... ...but its kinda tough to get everyone in the clZ to pA kAt but i dunno dAmn hAppi aBt it cuZ liDat i duniD to gEt my degrEe overseAs n i cAn get OuT the dAmn scH!
n i can stArt mY life in Uni aLL oVer agAin cuz i didnot do well lAst seM...and if i can stUdy in NUS tHAt woUld be gReAt cuZ i get to sAve a lot mOre n i duniD to leave my frEnz n FamilY to go oVersEAz...n my dArLin wiLL be siAnz withoUt n mizz mi lIke crAzy i nOe haha...den his buddies will ask him to kip plAying mJ...or brinG him oUt see gAls i die...
bUt hAiz cuZ i dun get to gO oVerseAs to sTUdy...realli wanna see the outside world but nid to PAY for it n iT aiNt cheaP iF not i gUess i'LL be oUtta SingApore le...and thE coUrses out there Are definiTelY more inTErEsting...eg aniMAl pHySio whiCh im sUper iNtErEsted in...haha cuz i love animalz n wanna work in the zoo...bUt no chAnce...aniwae will learn more abt it from mAryAnn haha...cuz she's in aUstRAliA now =) miSs her n toDaeS her bDae........
HaPpi bUrfDae to u
hAppi buRfdAe to u...
hApPi bUrfDae to MAryANn.......
hApPi bUrfdAe to u! haha
But i realli hope that the dept will hurry shift uS all over! its v mUch bEttA cuz we study so hArd we deserve to get betta den a diplOmA!!! SHIFT SHIFT SHIFT! I WANNA GO NUS!
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1/09/2007 08:19:00 PM
Monday, January 08, 2007
no ballet...went hoMe earli to study...hehe...stuDy plAy druM and daNce awhile n bAck to bOoks agaiN...den eat diNner and waTch "SO U THINK U CAN DANCE" damn niCe haha but i think lAst week nicer...
got a new blogskin haha but i think oso no one care...cuz i dun think got pple read my blog aniwaez....lolx...but i think the brown a little too dark n nid to find the code for the folders to arrange it nice nice haha....time to lOok for kim korkor...he ar dun wanna sae le...go bac HK oso nv tell mi!
haiz sianz everydae oso nid to stud study n study alamak gimme a break!
well will update more interesting stuffs as in m0re of my tots n feelings soon.... =)
bye to who ever is reading
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1/08/2007 09:57:00 PM
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
sch start le...but haben done anithing in the hols damn it...
go to deAr's hse after sch...freakz siaz...go to sch jux for one lesson...aiyOh kenna fAked...
dear deAr at home play mj den still hav to buy lunch lor...GONG BAO JI DING!!! YUMMY!
but bits sianz leh hahaz...
after dey play finish dada won money =)
den the 4 of us (siyun, ceyi, dada & mi) slacking in the room super sianzzz~ dats why im here to blog muAhahahahahaHAhahahAhhaHA...........
lOOked at Tak's wiShliSt...guess can onli afford lots of rocher and FOSSIL watch hahaz...
TIME FOR SCRABBLE!
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1/03/2007 06:18:00 PM
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
2oo6 jux zoom pAst lidat...OMG so fast lehz...
hopefully that 2oo7 will be a much better yr for mi...in terms of my rship with deardear, in my studies & my character...
WISHES FOR 2O07...- WORLD PEACE - may the world be free of disaster and war =) and may every being become good natured
- TO WORK ON MY SPIRITUAL LIFE - i wanna beginning walking close to God again
- DEAR DEAR WILL COME TO ACCEPT THE LORD - may hubby will be a christian =) and serve the Lord together
- EVERYONE AROUND MI TO LIVE IN HAPPINESS & IN GOOD HEALTH =D
- TO STUDY HARD TO BE A GOOD PHYSIOTHERAPIST (mimi: physio the RAPIST haha) - to fufill one of my ambition...its a tough course so i nid...
- TO BE DISCIPLINE - in dealing with my studies n spiritual life and therefore...
- GIVE THE GLORY BACK TO GOD, TO HONOR HIM N MY PARENTS - woah sounds so xiao(4) shun(4) but 1st muz...
- DO WELL IN ALL TESTS AND EXAMS! - no choice mux go australia to do my degree conversion =)
- DEAR AND MI WILL BE AS LOVING FOREVER =)
- DEAR'S CAREER TO BE SMOOTH SAILING AND MAY HE RISE IN RANKS - cuz if he do well i get to live well too...can save more money to prep our marriage =) and we can enjoy more stuffs =) haha
- THAT 2007 WILL BE A MUCH BETTA YEAR FOR MI N DEAR DEAR!
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1/02/2007 07:20:00 PM
