Monday, December 18, 2006
finalli im back again cuz its the hols and im free to slack a little haha but still gta stuDy...stupid or wad...many stuffs happened...n i saw quite abit abt human...
1st i shall start by popping this question...
WHO ARE THE CLOSEST PPLE TO U?
a) family
b) ur other 1/2
c) frens
d) stranger
well my ans will definitely be (B)...cuz without my baby i dunno wad will happen to mi...im alwaes so reliant on my baby...lucky dear dear is alwaes there to help mi up and let mi lean on him in times of trouble and sadness...
its even more scary and make mi realise the importance of him when i see how pple can present themselves in their mask n without them...terrible...its makes mi question myself...are they realli frens? or jux there when dey nid mi??? did they realli befriend cuz the realli wanted to? who are my real frens and who arent? i realli can no longer differentiate le...i dunno why some frens can realli be so sacarstic...n its does feel that they mean it cuz they dun sae it cuz dey are joking...ask mi how to differentiate but i dunno its jux a feeling...RIGHT? somehow it seems that the frenship start jux for the sake of starting...and it wasnt a 2-wae thing...in the 1st place i think...i dun wan such a frenship...it jux sux when it seems to be wad ur thinking...not happy den dun see each other lor...dun show black face la...its not that im super eager liddat...so wad if im alone? i dun mind i can tke a nap slack or do sth until my baby knock off...its not like i nid a company badly and not that i dun hav others..dun understand why some pple can jux be so insincere...n hypocritical(if my england is correct)i dunno mayb u might not get wad im trying to sae or to mean cuz i oso dun realli noe how to express it...jux dunno how to put it in words n to kip it confidential on certain stuffs so that we dun make the situation worse jux in case the "frenz" sees it...sort of dun even noe whether i consider them as my frenz still...many things change ard mi as i hear of stories of them from certain pple and mayb i shud jux mind my own business and shall not comment on them but jux on how i feel abt frens as a general topic. its like sudden they can jux be so different y liddat?am i influenced by the dramas i watch abt how ugly human can be?and im slowly seeing the drama in reality...who can i trust? its realli sad that pple actualli dun mean wad they "act" to be...they turn out to be so self centered...im not saying dat im a saint but at least i can be true to myself that i treat my frenz quite well in some sense...at least the frenship on my side is sincere and wholehearted...wad is the value of the frenship between pple izit measured by money or how much advantage the other one can give? or how superior u can become from comparing with ur frens? are frens onli there when they nid u? i dunno...i seen how they can smile a bit when they cya...den like a bit not quite happi cuz of ur presence and fuck care how u think ltr and show u how sacarstic they can be with their comments den show u that the frenship isnt as treasured as u tot it was...and even show how heck care they are with ur common frens too...and suddenly with other pple ard dey start smiling and befriend like so damn gud lidat...pple can see thru the mask n tell mi "like quite hypocrite" lidat...when she barely noe the "fren"somehow it goes in this wae...when u ruin one relationship its tough to mend it back thats all i can sae...[when "u" dun wanna see "them" it does not mean that "they" realli wanna see "u" too sometimes its jux a courtesy to ask...esp when the rship is already ruin by "ur" attitude]enuff of this disheartening topic...i did had a great time at sentosa celebrating zhen's birthdae had a gREat tan although i went home quite tired hahaz...at least i had fun being with her...and the effort she puts into our frenship is the same as mine...although we didnt realli spend much time with the guys but still felt quite fun with them ard haha cuz can luff at them =) i love my tan...gg back b4 sch starts again...haha...went back to DFAC todae for camp renewal...for jux 1/2 a dae...zhen told mi that quite a few frm yj...lolx but i saw the person i dun wanna see most...well he gave mi the shocked faced and so dao mei in the same grp as him...aiYoh...i was like dun look at mi lidat i was here 1st...dunno why he like so damn "famous" there n i dun care but jux quite unhapi dat he show face...mayb is i too sensitive but damn it u think i wanna cya? i dun hate u but i dun wanna cya either...so i jux go lor aniwaes its the bukit timah hike...lazy oso no shorts oso...lucky didnt go after hey left abt 5min ltr it started to rain lolx...heng arhs we go cold storage with huda n azlan...lolx...den went velocity w zhen =) went home n slpt till nite...i m realli glad that i hav my dear...he is the best ard! i love my baby! he even go to my clz christmas party with mi n when we got back home he quite high on wad linus sae..."he qute good lookin wad why u alwaes sae he not good lookin?" haha he gonna siao le...when he heard hadi sae he cute! hahaz...n he impressed my clzmates with his card tricks even zhen yan oso dunno how he do whahaha...he so cute...lost at daidee 3x and had to pump like 82 times cuz got one is 13 x 2 x 3 = 78 and +12 +2dear dear is so cute~ i love him...
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12/18/2006 08:35:00 PM
