for 4d3n i dint get to tok to my deArest...3 daes of nutcracker and the 3rd nite he wasnt free enuff for mi...hAiz...his stuPiD cockass compAny lA~ SO GaRang onli -_-" come on lorz...like ive mentioned so many blOody times so unFair to him!
i still do miss darlin aloT bUt mAyb i didnt send him a lot of smses... cuz im bz with my sch stuFfz i hardly have enUff slp le....and my work are piling uP like no one's buSiness...cuz iTs ONLI my problem la! damn siAz....
i onli got to tok to my dearest last nite and i was bz doIng my cuLTure researCh and memOrizing mY anAtoMy~ hAiz end up nO diScuSsion and i dun rmB a single thing for my aNAtomY...when Dr. Uma came near My hearT puMped so fast thAt i mighT juX get a heart attAck...hAiz...im stupid la...jUX plAin stupid! den dear said thAt i've reallli got so used to him not being ard and sooner or later i will leave him and dun love him anymore~
no suCh thiNg lo...i do admit i hAv kiNda goT uSed to iT but thAt doesnT mean thAt i love u~ and i duN miss u...cuZ i hAv to adapt to it as i cant possibLy be crying for dear everydae wAdz~ and anOther thinG iS thAt i m bZ with my work....i kNew i did hurt dear lAst nite cuz of this iSsue...bUt in mY hEart i stiLL very muCh wanna spend time with dear and be with him~ if poSsiBle i woUld rather giv uP my stuDies...its stRessin mi too mUch le! im going crAzy and now i seems to be neglectIng dear...im realli sorry...bUt i cant giVe uP my bOoKs cuZ i canT affoRd to...easY to sAe...but whu is goNna provide mi? i cant be dependent on oThErs lorz...and i'll be waStInG my life awae if i dun go coNtRuCtive stUFfs in mY life...isnt thAt worse? i duN wanna be soMeone so useless and woRtHless...not contribuTinG to mY family nor the soCiety in other words jux a stupid freeloader...waste food resources onli...
life is tough! can i call it quits? can i juz cry myself to death and leave this cruel world? can the world stop stressing n hurting mi? im going crazy le...wads with the face the REALITY?!
i rather stay in my dream...total fufilment of life with my dearest pple...and live in jux the beautiful memories and not face REALITY which is jux a whole lot of bullshit that the world hav on us!arghhhh~ crap!
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5/19/2006 03:18:00 PM
We LovE, beCauSe HE 1st LovEd uS...
The One & ONLI
XiAoxUereN
bAllerina
hiPhoP dAncer
bAsketBaller
pHysiO-to-bE...who was borN...
on 13th mAy 1987
im nuTtiN but a crAzy gAl and oNe wHo conStAntly seeks for fun n relAxation...
LOVES;
huBbY ChUbi
YumMy fOOd:
dArK chOcoLAte
chOco-miNt iCe crEaM
eScaGots
FuN aNd lAuGhTer:
bAskEtbAll
DaNcinG (my eveRlAsting pAssion)
wAtcH tV
sLacK
PlaY mY drUms
diStUrB mY frEnz
stuFfs thAt giMme an AdrEnAlin ruSh =)
tRaveLLin
shOPpiN
pEoPle:
cArol deAr
soTonG ZheN zhEn
mAryAnn dArliN
pEixi tHe siAo
pAtRiciA the crAzy
tinGting the gAlgAl
HATES;
mY bOokS! hAte to stUdy mAn!
hYpOcriTes (unfortuNately dEy are ard!)
*giMme some time to aDd to thE liSt*
DESIRES;
moSt imPtlY
cASh
more cloThEs
a niCe wAtcH
dO dAmn weLL in mY stUdies to gO to aUstRAliA
moRe fReeDoM
*i'LL lOOk for tHem the nExt timE i gO shOppiN
