Monday, April 24, 2006
guess i mux realli learn how to make bloggin a habit...jux like the wae i write to my dear in the notebook everydae...
sch started and im like i dunno abt whether i can cope...
the notessux...no pictures short explaination...come to think of it although those lecturers are like Dr. so and so...they cant teach as compAred to YJ'S teachers who are like degree holders,at most mAsters...lectures are redundant! dey got us to buy txtbkS and guess i will hav to rely on them le... =( N i hate txtbks...so bulky, heavy and EXPENSIVE!!!
the classmatesBOYSi dunno to sae that they are hardworkin or kiasu...going to the library to read up on bio...start doing tutorials! they are stressin mi out!
GIRLSthey are a nice bunch but i dunno izit mi but mostly i hav nuttin much to sae...mayb i dunno how to start a conversation...mayb its jux the 1st week...its normal to feel the distance....mab its cuz they knew each other le...come frm the same JC blah blah...but im the miserable lonely YJCian... =( there's a YJCian but she ish in OCCUPATIONAL THERAPY...arhz....zhen zhen...guess the both of us are in a similiar situation...
the schoolnuttin interesting...except for the exsistance of cheers wre i can POP my POPCORNS =)
MEim beginning to feel that freedom is better...at least i wun hav to start gettin stressed out and can hav more free time...physio seems tough...and dear is sufferin in the army too... =( i realli love the dae when the both of us were so free...cuddle in bed the whole dae...i miss the daes we go pa tor...shoppin and walkin to no wre but jux enjoying ourselves...no nid to worry abt time...everydae ish spent without worries and nv apart...
hav i sink in too deep into dis relationship?
YES
i realli cant bear to let dear go...
listening to his weekly stories hurts mi...
seeing his body with injuries, rashes and mosquito bites jux pains my heart
everytime when its time for him to leave i jux dun feel like lettin him go...
every week i jux hope that we could run to somewre to be alone
BUT WE CANT
the little time we hav now ish realli not enuff
everytime we wake up frm our nap
its evening and time for dinner...
time to go soon...
one more month to go...izit considered long or short?
i dunno...
its another 4 yrs plus before he get out of army...
since dear wanna get the lump sum...
it wud be another 9+ yrs
wud it realli be like dis?
is he gonna remain in his line thru out his life?
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